Above is the last picture of me before Killian was born. I was probably about 37 weeks pregnant here.
Ever since I knew what a baby was I loved them. I am the youngest in my family and I would have been perfectly happy to be surrounded by several other little siblings. I constantly asked my parents to have more kids. Once that ship had sailed and I also realized the Lord was not calling me to a spiritual motherhood through religious life, I dreamed of becoming a mama one day. Jake and I have never truly used NFP to avoid pregnancy but were not necessarily trying to get pregnant early in our marriage either. If it happened, wonderful; it not, so be it. After a few months of some wacky cycles we decided I should start charting incase I had any trouble getting pregnant. Low and behold I was diagnosed with mild PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) due to high testosterone, a high BMI, and some really insane NFP charts with no ovulation present. I was blessed to work with a NaPro technology doctor who put me on a very low carb diet. I was allowed to eat 30 grams of carbs a day. Let me tell you, some granola bars have more than 30 grams of carbohydrates so needless to say the diet was challenging. I was ecstatic to find out that about two months after I started dieting and exercising, I was pregnant with Killian. Jake and I were so happy. I couldn't wait to start showing and feeling K move. I could have done without throwing up for the first 15 weeks but even that was reassurance that my baby was healthy and growing inside me. I really enjoyed being pregnant, minus the throwing up. I remember the first time I knew I felt Killian move was at the anatomy ultrasound. He was going insane inside me and I couldn't believe I wasn't able to feel all the action when suddenly he kicked really hard and I was able to see and feel him. What an extraordinary experience! Toward the end of my pregnancy he was so active and he was quickly losing space so the nausea was creeping back. The final days of pregnancy were not exactly my favorite because having a human inside you who is big enough to not live inside you anymore isn't very comfortable. I was also extremely eager to see my baby boy. Today I strolled across an Instagram of a birth and newborn photographer and although her pictures were a bit graphic I loved them. Childbirth is incredible and beautiful. Giving birth was easily the most difficult thing I have ever done but I love it more because of that. Seeing that baby for the first time and embarking on the amazing journey of raising them is the best gift in the world. Not to mention having your husband love you through your whole labor and delivery. I still love babies except now I love my baby and my family and I am excited to continue to have babies. There truly is nothing so special than loving your child and deepening your love with your spouse by having children. I will admit Jake and I "fight" more now than ever but we're all the better for it and its not Killian's fault. If anything, Killian helps us expose our vices and gives us opportunities to grow in virtue. I love my life. Those are my happy thoughts for the week.
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